Anxiety of cleaning clutter.

Ever watch Hoarders on TV? That show just crushes my heart to see all that garbage in peoples homes and they have to make the decisions to get it out of the house and yard. I do not know how they get through it without ending up in a crazy house.  But that is just me.

I have a love hate relationship with cleaning out my clutter. I start off Ok then I look at it and think what the heck am I going to do with some of this stuff. I wonder why I keep some things too. By the middle of a small project. Today its a cupboard where I keep my craft stuff and books I sell. I have to stop and sit down and not think about it for a few moments. I think its because I suddenly realize I do not have the room in there to keep it all but yet I do not want to toss out stuff but I have no clue what I want to do with it. Its a moment when my anxiety starts up. Then I have to take this project a lot slower than I wanted. ugggg. It does not make me happy for that time period. I am looking at it now thinking what I wanted to do in there is not going to happen and I need to make another plan. That does not make me happy either. And deep down inside I want to get this stuff organized so I can work on making stuff. That will make me happy.

I do not know where I am going with this other than clutter and stuff can make a person unhappy if its taking over a space.

I want to create and I can not do it when I  can not find my stuff all in one place. That is my ultimate goal is to get all my stuff in one room so I do not have to look all over the house for it. Guess I need less stuff.

That is my rant for today.

This is from last year. I am happy that so far this year we do not have feet of snow to deal with. A little ice and cold and a little snow. But so far a pretty mild winter. Just a few bad days so far. Got about 2 months to go yet before we can hope for spring. 


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